@richrf,
Rich,
It sounds to me like you are just taking things as they come. (Lay back) Is this basically just a part of your character that has always has been that way, or are you into the whole concept of surrender?
When you say that your Soul/Mind chooses to do it, are you basing this on your having seen for yours self that life as it plays itself out is pretty much automatic?
When you say that you don’t want to over think it, (Life or our Spiritual journey), is it because you see that thinking isn’t the controlling factor in this puzzle, or is it rather that you find that thinking too much brings you pain and confusion?
Having asked these questions please let me explain my plight a little bit.
I had no choice when it came to investigating these ideas. Was it just a part of my character or was it what some have called the “Buddha Nature?” All I know is that at my very center was a dissatisfaction that couldn’t be filled no matter what. Pleasure wasn’t any kind of an answer, pleasure being transient. Even if you were totally happy with the way things were or what you thought you had in any given moment, you found yourself worrying about losing your newfound happiness or love object in the next moment, or even much to your disappointment having it ripped from your hands.
I didn’t start off wanting to know ‘Who Am I.’ Originally I just wanted to stop the pain. Or as Buddha said, 1: “Suffering is.” 2: “Suffering can be made to stop.”
(Incidentally, I am not a Buddhist. But I find him to be one of the greatest psychologists to have ever lived.)
Very often I saw this search as futile. I, time and again, simply decided to turn my back on it and walk away. But this didn’t seem to be in the cards for me. This search had me hooked. Was it an addiction I asked myself more than once? Little matter, it didn’t seem to be a thing of choice.
Some might say that the call to this search is a matter of Spiritual Maturation. I on the other hand believe that this is going on in every heart. Some persons simply don’t realize it and think that a new car will make them happy.
Some have said that this search is an old man’s game, they having become world weary and seeing the grave looming in their near future. The young are so filled with expectation of conquest and myths about what is open to them or within their reach, that perhaps their eyesight is limited, even clouded.
Anyway, I would be curious to hear what your take on this is.
Everyone in fact is going their own way, no doubt. They are following their bliss as Joseph Campbell has said. Perhaps all that we are doing here is comparing notes, or is it maps.
I heard it said, “You are your destiny.” (An aside: Destiny is a mind thing.)
Down through the centuries, man has longed to understand beyond what this world chose to put before him. Maybe this is built in to our very psyche; this wish to transcend the more limited and finite definition of self.
Incidentally, I too believe that every event and every individual that comes before you is a lesson of sorts. But isn’t that what we would expect from a healthy and growing mind?
I am not suggesting that anyone rush to become enlightened. That would presuppose traveling to a destination beyond what we already are. What I am suggesting is “more of the same” in what you are already doing. Look around, and take it all in, “ALL” in. In doing so, what have called ‘Mindfulness,’ you will come upon the REAL.
Yes, I agree with you, Jesus, Buddha, Ramana, Lao Tzu, and Adyashanti are/were just ordinary men. These are however men who, like myself and many others, became addicted and couldn’t stop, until one fine day they did stop and notice that they were home and that they had been home all along.
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