Hello Hex, I am going to go around the bend here a bit in my response to the below comment you rendered. Hope you don't mind. I think it is important to do that in this instance.
1) He respected me for that obnoxious person I am, since I actually could do something intelligent.
When I first read the above I was taken aback and really considered what this offered as to find reason for it. I am still grappling with it and have come to understand that is what "trolling" is. The only person who would respect an obnoxious person is another obnoxious person. They get off on being intelligently indignant, abhorrent, antipathetic, contemptible, despicable, detestable, disgusting, foul, loathsome, nasty, nefarious, odious, repugnant, vile, or wretched. Is this accurate? Please tell me this is not you? I know it's not but all that which I just brought forth is what obnoxious is. Surely you are not all that.
The more thought I applied to it, the more it made sense to me and why some people are the way they are when it comes to recognition and the fact that they never got a "pat on the back" and would do what they do to get that recognition. What immeasurable damage that does if one ever gets a pat on the back for being obnoxious? Damn!
Hell, man find another job; you're intelligent, you can do that. If being obnoxious gives you some measure of intellectual satisfaction then all I can say is to try and "get out of it". You may meet someone someday who does not take being so insulted so rationally.
Perhaps you meant to use another word and if you did that will make me feel better for there were times in my life in which the "urge to kill" arose in my thinking when confronted with an obnoxious person. Perhaps it is a survival technique of which you eluded to. If that is the case enjoy life while you can (if anyone can call that a life), for you will run the risk of someone ending you to save a whole lot of people grief they sure as hell don't deserve.
Let me tell you a story. One day in the sales room where all sales people gathered to do their paper work another sales person, popular for being arguably "the best" who was pretty, smart and competitive and was tolerated for her obnoxious behavior because of that. Tolerating her was really sticky where the others were concerned. Now if you are at all familiar with sales the powers that be don't really care what kind a personality a person has as long as the sales keep rolling in. They look the other way. Sad!
We were busy compiling our paperwork and one of the new office clerks came in for some reason or the other and she was barefooted for comfort reasons, I imagine. She was pretty too and what can be described as vivacious, naive and full of life and this "good" sales person, out of the clear blue, commented in a rather obnoxiously loud way for her to go put her shoes on, she had "ugly" feet!
Everyone in the salesroom looked up and the room became quite still. The young girl was offended and it was all she could do to hold back the tears. I got up and went over to her and put my arm around her and told her to go over and slap the living sh*t out of her and I would be right behind her if she decided to retaliate. Of course she didn't and went back into the other room. I glared at the other girl and she glared back. You could her a pin drop. Then she just laughed as if nothing had happened and went on about her work as did I. Nothing was said after that and from then on her obnoxious behavior did quell a bit. She had never been called on it before. She was used to having her ass kissed and thought she could get away with anything. No one every really understood how she such a good salesperson for she never let anyone ride with her to observe her and all she did to "get the sale". I didn't speculate on that for I didn't know nor did is what to know.
Ha, she did have a boyfriend though who was another one of the sales people. I say "ha" because he was the epitome of what a sycophant is. When she barked he heeled. It was embarrassing to observe and the sad part is he didn't care.
I found out later that she was addicted to amphetamines and crystal meth was her drug of choice. If that has anything to do with her being obnoxious, I don't know?
Never touched the stuff.
I am lucky there in my observation skills as I have witnessed others who were hooked on some drug or the other and that alone told me to "keep away". Some need them, I don't. Nicotine is mine (as was alcohol for years but never did I over do it) and I wish I didn't have that one but there are times when I wonder if there is something beneficial about nicotine as well as other drugs; if we only knew what those were and in what measures......................?
What we imbibe does affect the personality and anything used unadulterated can be dangerous no matter what it is. That, it can be concluded, has something to do with all the mysterious personality disorders that are cropping up or at least the consequential aftermath of unadulterated substance use which I think is becoming epidemic.
It might be a good idea to do a survey here to see what the drugs of choice members of the forum use? Hell, look at all the damage "sugar" does. Hmmm? I don't use that one either; ha, I have enough of it stored up in me to not need any more and I am burning it up as we speak. Yea!!!!! We have a lot to learn about all the "uppers" we consume and why we need "so much" energy and what conflagration means; a more sophisticated term for "burn out".
I know the latter part of this post could be construed as off topic but I think it is a part of the over picture of who we are and instrumental in how we act. There are so many substances being imbibed, it really difficult to know what clean and sober really means. And being obnoxious could be the result of that........too.