@salima,
salima;150479 wrote:so i created an ideal mate, after countless failures in reality...and then i met someone who was even better, truly perfect in every way. not one thing would i change. what am i doing wrong i wonder?
I find it is easier to accept imperfection in all things, and in people -the more I love myself, which I cannot do exactly for who I am, but I can do for my progress and aspirations as a human being... In this culture we only get one life, and we have a great deal of pressure to get it right...I am 56, on the down side of life, and I feel like I am getting some things right... I am getting some love, I'm working out, doing some riunning, training, working on my future, and I feel I have one... What else can I do???
When we are young, and to all apperances have freedom, we are all too ignorant to make proper use of it, and when we have knolwedge then our bodies restrict our freedom; but is it not better for the mind to run free than the the feet??? When I was young and I hunted, I could not go everywhere I saw, but stealthy, I let my vision play upon the distant shadows, conjuring up the shy deer... Age opens our field of vision... Where we go we do not blindly go...
I'll bet you are not doing anything wrong that we would not all do wrong... We leave unhappy relationships for the hope of happiness and find we are yet unhappy... We bear unhappiness as a cross, and find life still shits on us... The obvious fact is that life robs from each of us, sometimes with a promise, and some times with a gun; and it does not much matter what we do, and the best we can do is delay the inevitable... What if you do not believe in luck or fate or God??? How can we account for all the evil that occurs in the lives of good people??? I don't think we have to... The evils of life come with life, and we all pay for our lives with our lives, leaving nothing on the table, carrying no meaning beyond our ends... Enjoy it while you have it, and help humanity...