all's i know is, the people in my life that have been the most happy never really thought about anything but what they were doing at the time. sometimes they werent very good people, and sometimes bad but not too bad-in other words, especially mediocre in my own humble judgment or evaluation of them as human beings, which i know i have no right to do but how is it possible not to?
Do we know when we are bad philosphically or humainly?
I find humanisms mediocre, sex and drugs and rock and roll, to be a man or woman is medicore but as long as we can be happy in our distractions and mediocraty why not? Perhaps we were meant to be mediocre and happy?
Unfortuantely for me i am crap at mediocraty, i just hope i can be a half way decent philosopher, it seems at times all i got. But wait i am an artist as well so critcs be damned, unless all you do it for is to be loved?
Do philosophers really believe in love?
people who think and question usually end up doing some very wonderful and awesome things or some really horrible macabre things. or so it seems to me...
All about the outcome i suppose, is it wonderful only by apreciation or is it only macabre by condemnation?
What of the intention? Human or hope? Demonic or divine?
I trusted my human hope and was mistaken to think it would become divine, so am i left distrusting everything but the demon?
No because i know what demons are and why they need be trusted only that they will bring destrction and ruin.
You can trust destruction but you are left doubting if hope is worth all the effort when divine seem so far out. At least thats how i feel today.
and people who never think or question dont seem to commit suicide...or murder. on the other hand, they do start forest fires...house fires and restaurant kitchen grease fires and so on...but the main difference is-they are the happy ones.
Happy, divine or human?
Perhaps they dont commit suicide not because they dont ask questions but because they are asking the wrong ones?
I've nearly died and when i knew it was coming i was happy or at least contented, so even learned to be contented and or happy if i never see it coming, but i used to set fires as well and at these times i was most unhappy, never more happy though when i was putting them out, but unfortuantely even though you can breath fire means you can not put them all out and you get blamed when ever something catches.
The sad thing is I have to be more careful with my candles.