Re: I'm outta here. BYE
Hmm, I will check out that video sometime, thanks.
Ok, buddy, I'm sorry too. Don't take my words too personally - it's just that bastard (zflash7) got me upset so much (he is real amazing, man!).
It's alright mate, I understand ya completely
, met some guys like him on the internet before. Heck, he's even been to this one forum I frequent (the forum is dead now though, by the way. It's not netlinkup either)
I'm in my 30's and I've been in the family during the 90's. Even though I wasn't born into the family I was really trying to fit in and to live my life "for the Lord", but quite often I had problems and conflicts with other f-members. Mostly, that was because I did keep quite a bit of my dignity, with they called "pride" and allowed myself to debate and question the tings I thought were wrong. No, I wasn't arguing all the time, like my friend was (YA, family born) - he would argue with you about everything, just for the sake of it... However, I was real "stubborn" and "unwilling" when it came to "sharing" with older aunties - god, I did my best to avoid those "special moments" and they said I was "proud" and "selfish". Ha! Yea, there's so much to tell, but...
Eww... only trouble I had was just mental related.. was grown up in a different timeperiod I guess.
I know how hard it is to realize that you've been fooled by those who you thought to be "the ppl of God" - I've gone through this myself and I have given much thought to this, re-evaluating my past and things that happened to me, since I left the group. And still, it hurts! So, I just want to tell you to hold on and to stand up for yourself and for your real family - because if you don't do it, nobody will! If you decide to leave, you will probably find that people "in the system" are much more friendly and much easier to deal with (that is not to say that you've never dealt with the outsiders, don't get me wrong) and there are a number of reasons for that.
Thanks for the encouragement mate. Ever since the Reboot occurred things have been better. We moved out of our old home because our old home was breaking apart. Mom, dad, and me (I am the oldest male in my family) have been acting alot less... emotional and stressed toward each other. We saw the reboot and the distance away from the border as an opportunity to just get away from the situation there.
My old home composed of three families including my own. I was the sort of the trouble teenager, apparently I didn't keep my facial expressions well enough to imply happiness
. There was also this girl my age, which created more tension (not in that
I think mom and dad now acknowledges that there isn't a elitist edge about the family anymore and I appreciate them for thinking that. I'm in a high school now, and the early morning schedules sort of interfere with when I take my word times (if not at all,
). Hopefully I'll meet more peps there.
I'm currently living in Europe (don't want to be more specific - some of our relatives are still in the F.) but hoping to go to the States to play some gigs (I've got a band now). Sorry again for that "jezuz shit" insinuation - I can be extremely ironic and mean when it comes to dealing with certain type of "family members" (I'm sure you're not one of them). By all means, I am open to a dialog and conversation and can probably share a few pieces of personal advice (should anyone ask for it, that is). You take care of yourself, man!
Naw, it's alright. I also feel kinda awkward, sharing even some of this information about myself (I mean, what if someone from my old home came here, saw this, and made the connection?)
You take care too mate