Re: Q. I am not an enemy to the Family, am I unwelcome here?
Once again, you find it easy to pass judgment. If I sound bitter to you, what would you call Jesus when he cursed the pharisees and called them vipers and sons of Satan? Whatever the pharisees might have done, they didn't rape and beat little children in the name of God. There is such a thing as righteous anger, but I seriously doubt you'd know it if it bit you in the ass.
If my tone is angry, it's because I get tired of the kind of sloppy moral reasoning you've expressed. If my tone offends you, think of it as a small reflection on how terribly offensive your obtuse lack of compassion for the Family's victims appears. La-la-la, forgive and forget! Get the victory! Feeling a little hurt, are we? Jeez-ass luvs yah! I love you! Feel better now? NO? There must be something wrong with YOU. (Surely there's nothing wrong with a clueless crackpot who offers insensitive advice in a spirit of profound ignorance.)
I don't hold God responsible for what humans chose to do or not to do. I don't hold God responsible for injustice in the world, either. All of this is our doing, and it is us, human begins, who are responsible to make the world a more just & loving place. That won't happen by pretending evil doesn't exist, didn't happen, or that some of our choices haven't done irreparable damage. Vengeance belongs to God, and until the day I die, I will declare that adults who rape and beat children are guilty of a serious crime against humanity. I will also challenge anyone--regardless of how many dopamine receptors he appears to have fried beyond recovery--who tries to minimize, rationalize, or deny the evil that was done to a generation of children born into the Family International.
Why not get better educated about the lifelong impact of child abuse on the victims before passing judgment on me and offering advice to those who survived that particular holocaust?
I'm 36,married,a mother of two,and a former member of the Family.I got out when I was 14.I have tried to make a normal life for myself but it's been hard.I still have nightmares about the past.There were 7 kids in my immediate family(I am the oldest)and most of them have problems directly related to their upbringing and time spent in the Family.The abuse has haunted and changed us all.I don't even tell people about it because it so wierd. As an adult and a mother,I have a difficult time understanding that serving God required such horrible sacrifices.I want to forgive and move on with my life.But the past just won't go away.It is amazing that I even believe in God.My mother is still very involved with the Family and refuses to see how destructive it has been to all of her children.My reaction over the years has been to distance myself from everything even remotely related to the Family.What happened to Ricky was heartbreaking.One of my brothers just passed away and it looks like suicide,another brother is on heavy medication and is severely depressed from his experiences in the Family,my sister had a nervous breakdown two years ago.So,I feel like I just can't get away from the past.I have a great husband and my daughter(19)just had a baby.My son (16)is deaf and has special needs and he is my inspiration.I have alot to be thankful for and yet I'm sad and scared often.I worry too much and I suffer over MY family.I have looked for a support group but its hard to talk about with people that haven't been there.I was in the Family from age 2 to 14.And it has overshadowed my life in the worst way.Any helpful advice?
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