Please people help for my first step in organization ??????

1. Join TFI
2. Get Disappointed/Abused/Crazy
3. Leave TFI
4. Try not to kill yourself
5. Join xfamily

are you serious ??

You poor fellow, there are easier and less time-consuming ways to lose your sense of identity, connection with your family, ability to trust and desire to live than go through the mill of tfi.
I recommend you save some time and start therapy now instead of waiting to first join then leave a destructive cult like tfi.